what i've been working on....

i can't ask for anything more...

how the weekend went....

kissing lovely lips.

new guinea friends.

messages from the universe.

wandering through fields.

being thankful for friends.

seeing rainbows!!!
(not just one, but TWO different days, both double rainbows)

being 30 and wearing my big girl panties

so the first picture was taken at the best.rainbow.birthday.gathering.

i'm officially out of my twenties and the big dirty thirty party proved to be everything i could have ever imagined.

i wish i could have just spent more time relishing in all the love. all the dancing. playing. and the feeling that i am exactly as i'm supposed to be.

but the real world beckons and...i've been having a super hard time putting my big girl panties on and getting over my ex-issues. you know everyone has those issues that when they are brought up, it feels as though our layer of skin isn't there. that we are just flesh and bone and it's being pushed. prodded. and not so tenderly. (i hope i'm not the only one :)

but stagnating and holding on to negative behaviors has never been my thing. i'm all about the growth. but i just want to say that being a loving, conscious adult isn't always so easy :)

so be kind to yourself if you are trying out new ways of being. new ways of experiencing love. and let yourself have a day or two to internalize the changes.

i know i am ;)

naturally at peace.

i was going to only post the second picture that we took the night before, but instead have been really drawn to the first one.
a wake-up shot, fresh out of bed.
i want to share how much i've been appreciating my natural self.
it's not that i don't love embracing the girliest girl inside me and getting all dolled up for any occasion.
because i do!
it's more about feeling finally at peace with me.
it's that i don't have to get dressed up and go out to feel like i am being seen.
i get to wake up, roll over, give my first smile of the day to the sweetest man in the world, and know that he sees my spirit shining.